Colonised by the memory of you
It suddenly hits that the hollow inside can never be closed off
Not by anyone, not even the touch of a lover
They say memories make or break you
But yours has me intoxicated like alcohol makes nuisance of an alcoholic
I remember the tears and the hugs
The laughter and your mouth filled with food
Yet you felt the need to make a point
Haunted by the house we shared, I moved out
But last week I changed my mind and moved back in
I was too scared to let you go
Scared that if I lost my memories of you I would be lost
And though I’m alive, life would be of no use to me
In spite of the fact that I had breath
I wake up in the mornings
To the sounds and smell of you
And when I walk past our place in the house
My spirit sinks
And the rage within becomes that of an angry pit bull
The panging pain just like yesterday
When I used every ounce of strength I had to force you out of me
Memories are all I have now
Memories of you
